Lies We Tell Ourselves

It’s going to be okay.

For starters, no, it is not going to be okay. As much as we’d like it to bend to our tenacity, the universe doesn’t work that way. Nothing is just “going to be.” Things don’t just happen of their own accord. People and nature make things happen, they get working on plans, they set those plans into action, and they always have backup plans. Anyone who puts their brain to good use – frankly, it’s meant for such purposes – will have a backup plan for a backup plan. For ever Plan A, the person has a plan B all the way to Z. People put their blood, sweat, tears, and other numerous body fluids – I hope you get my gist – into ensuring that things turn out well. They don’t sit around waiting for miracles to happen, and speaking of miracles…

Nothing will save you.

There are no heroes, or at least, none who work for free and one who’ll work for you. However, there are plenty of methods to hire a hitman, if you’re interested? Miracles don’t just happen, and what’s more, they don’t happen to just everybody. Luck? What a joke. The harder you work, the luckier you’ll seem to work. People spend all of their lives into one teeny, tiny thing that makes them happy, that sets them apart from the rest; others work to be a part of the herd, to live mediocre, not out of the norm lives, blending in, and I will not begrudge them what they’ve worked so hard to achieve. They want normality? They put in as much effort as anyone who wishes to stand out from the crowd. Thing is, they try.

You’re sitting in pajamas you haven’t washed since the age of dinosaurs, on your filthy sheets that keep soaking up your sweat from not getting the air conditioning fixed, binge eating Chunky Monkeys, and watching Grey’s Anatomy on repeat. I sympathize with you; Derek Sheppard and Mark Sloan – until they both die – are something to stare at, ice cream straight out of the tub feels like liberation, but you stink and need a shower. No mystery deliveryman will knock on your door and bring to you food from the heavens, that will charge and change your soul and have you moving back into the world of the living. It’s tempting to wait, isn’t it? But is that worth the time you’re losing? Ted-talks will never have any effect on you unless you want them to. You will have to take the first step yourself, and it is the hardest step, but it is necessary and your own. The key to getting out of a situation is do what is in front of you, and then keep doing it. Just for a day, repeating this mantra, you do it just for a day, and then you wake up to a new day. You chant the mantra and make it to bed at the end of a long, tiresome day. You’re sore, but it’s a good kind of sore, an I-actually-got-stuff-done kind of sore. Take that first step, and watch yourself become the hero no one else was to you.

 

There will be time.

Now where have I heard that one before? Oh, right. That was what my neighbor sighed an hour before she got hit by a car amidst Friday afternoon traffic in Karachi. She was craving some chocolate chip mint and coffee ice cream, and had to rush to meet with her accountant. Since then, I’ve always possessed an insane craving for the same flavor of ice cream. I also give into my cravings. Feel like going into the marathon next month, and I’ll train the entire month. Want lemonade? I’ll make an entire jug, sip on it while I slip my shades on and judge people from the safety of my balcony. An old friend is in town? Time to make plans and follow through, because who knows when I’ll next see that friend.

You think you have time to do all the things you want to, but the truth is time will catch up to you faster than you can catch up on your bucket list. One minute you’re highschoolers enjoying a lazy summer, and the next you’re working a nine to five job and there’s no summer if you wish to remain employed. People don’t always make it to a ripe old age and you, your friends and family may not get to live up to even your fifties. Make time. Don’t put off what you can do today. Respect the fact that like all things mortal you will age, grow old, and die too.

And most important of all, stop lying to yourself, because the day you are honest with yourself, you don’t owe anything to anyone but yourself.

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